Somebody Shoot me Now!!!

If this is how my life is going to be for the rest of my life. I would rather be dead! No seriously, I would rather be dead!!! Days of, cleaning shit off the floor, endless cleaning, endless cooking, endless screaming! I am so sick of it, I feel like my life is passing me by. My days just melt into each other, how did I get here? Oh yes, my birth control failed me and now I am a reluctant mother! I hate it!!!! I want to scream every waking hour! I want to jump off a bridge and totally forget about this nightmare of a life! I want so many things but, one of the things I don't want is to be a mother anymore. I want to run away and never come back, I know what people are going to say though, they are going to say that I put myself in this situation so I should deal with it. Well, I never wanted kids, and I should have stayed a virgin for the rest of my life. Because now, I wish I had never been born! Now, I wish that I had never ever met his stupid stupid stupid father! I hate him! I hate him! I hate him!!!!! I want him out of my life for good! He just does not understand how hard it is, he thinks that women are just designed to live this hell. Anyway, that is my rant over for the day!

Get your life right before having kids

You all know my stance on this, if i knew the hell i would go through after having a child i would have remained childless.This is not  a life, it is hell.Hell on earth!!!! i advise you to get your life in order before having any children. If you have to struggle to keep food on the table then you will find yourself resenting your kids. Even hating them. I dont hate my son,but i hate with every bone in my body being a mother.it is the worst thing i have ever done in my life. Endless dirty house, non stop cleaning but it is never clean. Everything i touch gets messed up. I have to sacrifice everything for this while his dad does  not have to sacrifice a damn thing. its driving me crazy, and i am trying to run a business which is impossible with all the noise and the whining and the moaning,the routines,the playgroups, the day trips,its all a damn nightmare and i detest it. I was not built for this, and sometimes  i wanna jump out of a window.

if you want kids have a stable relationship and  stable life. enough said.